“The path followed by a projectile flying or an object moving under the action of given forces.” (Google dictionary)

The word ‘trajectory’ has been coming up a lot for me this past week.  This means the route in life I choose. Am I going in the direction I want to go, to get to where I want to go? Sometimes a slight change can alter the trajectory. This new path may not be where I planned to be, but it is where I need to be at that time.

 “Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?” Garth Nix.

Many years back when I was with my first boyfriend he asked me to marry him. I said yes, carried away by the romance of it all. We planned the wedding. We looked at reception venues. I bought the dress. I still have this dress. I wonder if I will ever get to wear it, but I digress. There were red flags I chose to ignore. Red flags that said loud and clear DON’T DO THIS, but I chose to ignore them.

We hadn’t set a date. I kept putting it off. I attributed this to having cold feet. We moved in together. One day my fiancé was in hospital. It was a particularly hot summer’s day. I had just got home from work. He called me to ask if I could drop off some clothes for him. After an hour in a car with no air conditioning I thought there’s no way I’m getting back in there and driving to the hospital.

“It’s all well and good to look back after the fact and see what we should have done, but we rarely know what path is best when we take the first step.” Christine Feehan.

I knew in that moment that I didn’t love him. I didn’t care enough about him to want to spend the rest of my life with him. It took this incident for me to realize the track I was on wasn’t the right one for me. We broke up. My life took a different trajectory.

Blessings to all xx

 “When you find your path, you must ignore fear. You need to have the courage to risk mistakes. But once you are on that road,… run, run, run, and don’t stop till you’ve reached its end.” Jose N. Harris.