Relationships

  In August I marked my fiftieth year on this earth. I’ve met many people on this journey of life. Regardless of my experiences with them I’ve learned more about myself through these interactions. In past romantic relationships I felt that there was always something missing. I couldn’t put my finger on what it was till much later. What I was missing was a connection. A feeling that this person got me. I believe now that I didn’t really know what I wanted in a relationship because I didn’t know myself. Who am I? What makes me, me? I know now that I’m a whole being as I am and don’t need someone to ‘complete’ me. When that special someone comes along they will compliment me, not complete me.

Family

I feel lucky and truly blessed to belong to the family I’ve been born into. I’m the eldest of four as I mentioned earlier. I have a brother born two years after me. A sister that followed a year later and my youngest sister. I along with my brother and sister thought it would always be just the three of us. My ‘baby’ sister was unexpected, but certainly not unloved.

Highs and lows

 Now that my siblings and I are adults we share a close bond. This is thanks in no small part to my parents who raised us to believe in the importance of family. We share all our highs and lows with each other. Our good times and bad times. Other people may come and go from our lives, but family is always there to pick us up and carry us through.

Evolving

I may be alone on this journey at the present time, but I’m happy in my own skin and accept myself flaws and all. I’m older and wiser. I don’t have to ask who I am. If I don’t know the answer to this by now I never will. This doesn’t mean that I’ve stopped learning and growing. This process continues. I’m still evolving.